11/2/11

A Lady Day Kinda DAY

"Love is like a faucet, it turns off and on. " - Billie Holiday

        When I read this quote it honestly Spoke to me ..... Reason being is because I have used the world "Love" So loosely she couldn't have said anything more true to ME at this present time....IT MAKES ME THINK.....Even though all I have done is said the world love , does this mean that I don't have the right to say it anymore? Is it a bad thing...being that I can say that I HAVE used it in "Vain".... Have I said it so much and gave it to so many people that I have "given" my love away ...so much so that no one will give me the love that I deserve because it is so easily shut off ?...As has been so true in my past. Hmmmm.... maybe Ill be the one who at this point has become so unwilling to give MY love to anyone that I will use it and then quickly turn the Faucet OFF, from being scared?... I  don't know but I DO know that I want love ...not the kind that Billie is talking about .. I want it to be the kind the NEVER Turns off but that Constantly Runs ...I hope to have this one day. Until then...I know I wont speak that  word to any potential mate ...Not bitter at all....I made every decision.