Hmm Where do I begin?...SOOOOO.....Today I went on my Sparkpeople.com Page really just browsing around, being that I'm not on there much I don't really take the time to look around I generally just log what I eat and drink how much weight I lost OR gained (Today was a LOSS -1 Lb...WHEW HOO!!) and then I log off, Well today .... I decided to look at some of my PAST blogs on there ....HAHA, I cant believe it these are from when I was just a baby!! a Fresh 21 Year old baby.... boy what I wouldn't do to go back to that time....Anyhow when I was reading one of my blogs I was kind of stuck Because I cannot believe I am still stuck in the same place 4 Years later and feeling the same way....WHO DOES THAT! *sigh* Anyhow This my blog from that day ( typos , weird slang..and all) Please see below:
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Every time i write in this thang im telling you its because some dude done pissed me off.....like omg I am so over these dudes-(oh how bad i wanna cuss) lol...anyhow so lets start with today - like im talkin to this dude real sweet but yo he is a liar! omg what is the point of it...what are you accomplishing by lying i swear sometimes i just wanna take it out on all dudes like i know there are some good ones out there but really if so where are they at? this is so hard already trying to loose this weight yea i got support from my family but why cant i just find a good dude too, one that doesnt lie or cheat or anything omg.....i know that my girl jill scott said it best talkin about the celibacy blues! lol...its a choice and the best one ive made in a long time, i guess when i find a dude that deserves me then i will feel like yea its okay to give him all of you but i feel like i am never gonna find that dude....the need for companionship is just soooooooo............time consuming, it shouldnt be this way. but it is and im just so angry right now....like ...i feel like keshia cole and her man haiting ways .......seriously....this is ridiculous.......but i guess its something i want so bad as far as being with someone i can really spend my energy on ...ya know someone who really deserves me....otherwise ima just have to sit back and chill and unfortunatly be and angry black woman lol with a smile on my face! i hold grudges and when youve been done grimy so many times its really hard to let go.
The most interesting thing about this blog is the First response I had from one of the members, she said :
"Men are only good for 3 things, sex, heavy lifting, buying a car or gettin it fixed, and i can do wit out the sex lol. but naw 4 real men, are dogs, dont trust them or anything about them".
HAHA, I thought that was pretty funny ...It definitely just put a huge smile on my face probably for the rest of the day, its funny that so many people are going through the same thing or may feel the exact same way you do.... you really have to remember there is ALWAYS someone worst of than you . So ill take the good with the bad and the bad with the good.... *shruggs*
