NATIONAL AIDS DAY 2011

Something Near And Dear To my Heart........Get tested People Save Your life and Someone elses!

"People Just dont Know what im about"- Ledisi

My Brother had been telling me for months about this Ledisi Chick, I heard her.....and was like " Yea shes cool " BUT Then what I heard her do on BET's Black girls Rock and my Opinion completely changed! She is hands down the most Amazing Artist I have ever Witnessed and heard with my own ears ..shes amazing and if shes coming your way I suggest you take heed and Get tickets N O W!!!!!! :)

Television!!

Today is Tuesday!!! YES!! I'm pumped because all MY FAVORITE  weight loss shows are on which include Two  MTV shows ' I used to be fat ' AND ' Chelsea Settles' then Second to These shows ' The Biggest Loser ' comes on I LOVE  these shows because they profile overweight people and their struggles for acceptance and personal issues ranging from : lack of  family support to Health Issues to Infertility and Depression...... Everyone has their own story and although I'm sure A lot of times when people watch these shows on television like the 'Biggest loser' or 'Heavy'  or 'Chelsea Settles'  Some people May think " GET OVER IT" " STOP EATING"  in fact I'm sure that a lot of people are kind of OVER and done with feeling sorry for over weight people but it honestly is a addiction and something hard to control ... I'm not that person on the outside looking in I AM that person so I definitely understand . All i can say is hold on and be strong! :)

Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn REVIEW

Well Over the Weekend I just as all the other Twi-Hards in the world went and seen the long anticipated Breaking Dawn Part 1 .... And I must say, I honestly wasn't too intrigued in the movie until the middle of it this being because that is when the movie for me got exciting! I thought the beginning was a little cheesy which I was so confused about being that it is the 4th movie you would think the production would be up to par but for me it just wasn't and I was a little let down.  :( As Many times as I read the books it didn't live up to my expectations.... I don't know why but I am still feeling a little empty  Maybe its because its only have of the last book ...I'm just not too sure.... Now I'm not saying that it was horrible...not by any means because anytime I can gawk over Edward ITS ALL GOOD! OK?!? ...Over all it was cool though,  Not GREAT,not AMAZING,  not "EPIC" (as so many people put on Facebook) but just good, I am definitely waiting for Breaking Dawn Part 2.

Tell me How to get to Sesame street!!

SSSOOOO...Today we took my adorable little Stinka Pot aka My Nephew Annyston To see sesame street he was sooo pumped!! It was a pretty good deal 14 Bux a ticket and definitely worth every cent even though I'm sure he will not remember this experience i still enjoyed it !  Jumping all around getting all types of crazy , I LOVED IT! as did he..

My Outfit ........I kept it pretty simple nothing special .......

Blazer: Old Navy
Boots: Nine West
Leggings: Faith 21
Shirt: F21
Earrings: Charlotte Russe
Lip Stick: Hot Passion By Covergirl
Rings: Mother :)

Things that KILL ME:

-Everyone and "they mama" Going "Natural" aka "The natural hair movement" -

My Thoughts:

         Being someone that has been natural since birth and Literally never sacrificing my hair for the "Creamy crack" I don't understand all of the hype about this....Be who YOU are ...don't do things because EVERYONE else is doing it...and I'm saying this from personal experience and ...Watching someone close to me Conform to something that I KNOW she isn't...... in her quest -To be something she is not.

          In reading some of the articles on the net from HelloBeautiful.com to Essence.com....... I find it so interesting that so many Women are quickly and unfortunately finding out the hard way that this  Natural Hair thing doesn't work and is not for everybody ..... This whole "BIG CHOP" or "B/C" thing just doenst make sense.... I mean I even went as far as talking to my hair dresser about this sudden "movement"....and after having this talk with my hair dresser and her saying "Everyone thinks they can go natural and Some people just CANT.......Most of them wont survive summer" I found this HILARIOUS .... ME personally I HAAATTEEE summers with natural hair its no fun.......but its ALL I KNOW so therefore I KNOW how to manage it....after all I'm honestly NOT new to THIS but TRUE TO THIS and .... Although I LOVE my thick locks, I also love the flat iron. YES, I know, I know- you have heard so many things about how heat can damage your hair and blah blah blah....... its a fact BUT..... its ALSO dependent on how much HEAT and HOW often you put HEAT on your hair....The same thing goes for coloring, I mean people cannot say Healthy hair is ONLY natural hair with no heat and no flat iron, But then these same people are the ones changing  their hair color every other season... I mean   I'm no expert but don't beat me up for HEATING up my flat iron .....when you are coloring your hair every 3 months!!

Moral of the story being....IF this is something you Truly are into then DO IT by all means, I wish you success on your Natural hair Quest...... BUT! ~~>....Don't Believe or get caught up in the Hype...and DON'T try to keep up with the Joneses .......................... JUST BE YOU!!!. I AM :)

My beautiful Dark Twisted Collection

SSSOOOOO .......... Here is my Consolidated Collection of Earrings, Rings and NECKLACES I have gotten these peices from allll over the place from your Typical Hair store, To Etsy.com( my fav) To the Thrift store, To the Cossignment Shop To my Mother I Love them all!! :)  There are actually more But this is all I could fit in the box (neatly)....The others are on top of my dresser untill I get the chance to actually Make a Nice Little Jewelry box which is my next project.

MY JOY!

Introducing the " Singa " 3 1 1 6 - Nothing Fancy but I Love it just the same <3 .
"BIG UP! "  to my mother for the cute Lil sewing table :)

Not long after I brought my sewing machine to my apartment I decided to try out my sewing abilities without my mothers assistance and this is what I  came up with........

Cute huh? ... The lining in the inside of it is pink I decided to go a little funky with the purse... Being that I  had some left over fabric I decided to put a bow on it! I literally made the bow with scraps  IT makes me smile.:) ..... Anyhow the fabric I used on it I literally paid 50 Cents for, from a thing we have once a year  here in Columbus called " The bargain box" ....

I also got this Cute clutch..( SEE DIRECTLY BELOW) Saying I'm OBSESSED WITH CLUTCHES is more than an understatement!!

Too bad this is out of season right now but it will be ready and roaring to go for Spring!!

I lThe bargain box is so awesome because you can get some really great pieces practically FREE! ... for example they will say " PUT EVERYTHING YOU CAN FIT IN A BAG FOR 5.00 " and as long as its tagged for 5.00  with in the time frame they give you, you are good to go .... not only that the clothes are donated from all over the place so its all going for a good cause, they have furniture there as well. So if you ever in the area beginning of fall Make sure to give it a try!!

New Years..... What do they call it again?!

SO being that the A New Year is coming around and of course everyone is going to be doing their weight loss thing as its done every year (with MOST New Years resolutions ) anywhoo im proud to say  I'm not going to be apart of that group I'm going to go with the just the plain old life style change.....You know  looking at where I wanna be and what I want to and Need to do....Everything else is really just a non factor. ..... SSSSOOOO let me go ahead and let you guys in on a couple of my goals.
Couple things
1. I am going to try and not PURCHASE any Brand Spanking New pieces of clothing for at least 6 mos out of the year....So that would be EVERY other month me gettin my thriftin on which = More money for savings.

AND

2.By my 26th Bday I would like to be a whole 65 Lbs lighter! doesn't that sound awesome?! ...anyhow I figure Instead of waiting until Jan 1st 2012 Why not start today!! So that's what I'm doing ...P.S The HCG is almost over so I can almost have my life back with a Bit of a head start in the weight loss area!! :) 

Back in the Day When I was young im not a Kid Anymore

      Hmm Where do I begin?...SOOOOO.....Today I went on my Sparkpeople.com Page really just browsing around, being that I'm not on there much I don't really take the time to look around I generally just log what I eat and drink how much weight I lost  OR gained (Today was a LOSS -1 Lb...WHEW HOO!!) and then I log off, Well today .... I decided to look at some of my PAST blogs on there ....HAHA, I cant believe it  these are from when I was just a baby!! a Fresh 21 Year old baby.... boy what I wouldn't do to go back to that time....Anyhow when I was reading one of my blogs I was kind of stuck Because I cannot believe I am still stuck in the same place 4 Years later and feeling the same way....WHO DOES THAT! *sigh* Anyhow  This my blog from that day ( typos , weird slang..and all)  Please see below:

Thursday, March 13, 2008

 Every time i write in this thang im telling you its because some dude done pissed me off.....like omg I am so over these dudes-(oh how bad i wanna cuss) lol...anyhow so lets start with today - like im talkin to this dude real sweet but yo he is a liar! omg what is the point of it...what are you accomplishing by lying i swear sometimes i just wanna take it out on all dudes like i know there are some good ones out there but really if so where are they at? this is so hard already trying to loose this weight yea i got support from my family but why cant i just find a good dude too, one that doesnt lie or cheat or anything omg.....i know that my girl jill scott said it best talkin about the celibacy blues! lol...its a choice and the best one ive made in a long time, i guess when i find a dude that deserves me then i will feel like yea its okay to give him all of you but i feel like i am never gonna find that dude....the need for companionship is just soooooooo............time consuming, it shouldnt be this way. but it is and im just so angry right now....like ...i feel like keshia cole and her man haiting ways .......seriously....this is ridiculous.......but i guess its something i want so bad as far as being with someone i can really spend my energy on ...ya know someone who really deserves me....otherwise ima just have to sit back and chill and unfortunatly be and angry black woman lol with a smile on my face! i hold grudges and when youve been done grimy so many times its really hard to let go.


The most interesting thing about this blog is the First response I had from one of the members, she said :

"Men are only good for 3 things, sex, heavy lifting, buying a car or gettin it fixed, and i can do wit out the sex lol. but naw 4 real men, are dogs, dont trust them or anything about them".


HAHA, I thought that was pretty funny ...It definitely just put a huge smile on my face probably for the rest of the day, its funny that so many people are going through the same thing or may feel the exact same way you do.... you really have to remember there is ALWAYS someone worst of than you . So ill take the good with the bad and the bad with the good.... *shruggs*

Lets.Be.Honest.

          When you really sit back and think about Your weight? Are you truly happy? I honestly don't think anyone can truly say "Yes, I Love being Big" that's similar to saying " I Love being out of breath", " I Love my legs rubbing together" and "I Love going to the store unable to find anything to wear" meanwhile weight consumes all of us, as much as someone wants to sit there and say that they are happy being fat ........THEY CANT HONESTLY BE . Even though I LOVE clothes and I Love to look nice at the end of the day I'm short changed because my mom has SO MANY awesome vintage pieces that I cant  fit!! That's a wake up call :( .... I'm not saying by any means lose weight so you can wear certain clothes ( even though that's a major PLUS) but if you don't have good  health you don't have anything. I cant wait Until the day when ALL of my weight is gone and its no longer a issue. So that I can walk Further and really relax around people. I am not going to say I'm a shy Gal-  but I often get uncomfortable in groups of people while everyone loves me and can tell me just how cute or pretty I am that still doesnt make me feel any more comfortable about being the biggest one in a group of 25-30 Year old I have to figure out where I missed the mark and quite honestly FIX IT. I don't fall into all the hype of "bigger is better".." big girls are this and big girls are that". At the end of the day its unhealthy and even though you can swear your healthy... the truth is the heart carrying all of that weight CANNOT be Healthy. I do love my self this is why it is important to challenge myself and get healthy so I can be comfortable in my own skin, OR if you like your size then "be who you be" But I want to be around to look cute a little longer, So I will continue to pursue my weight loss goals. Support is welcome :)

Goodbye Heavy D :(

May 24, 1967 - November 8, 2011

"Birth and death; we all move between these two unknowns" - Bryant H. McGill

Something For you to Remeber

" Do not be afraid of yourself. You are the world"- Langston Hughes


          Although Mr. Langston Hughes was using this in reference to "Negro Writers" I although not a career writer, can still apply this to my everyday life as well as my endeavors present and future.... therefore : I vow, to live by this Quote.

A Lady Day Kinda DAY

"Love is like a faucet, it turns off and on. " - Billie Holiday

        When I read this quote it honestly Spoke to me ..... Reason being is because I have used the world "Love" So loosely she couldn't have said anything more true to ME at this present time....IT MAKES ME THINK.....Even though all I have done is said the world love , does this mean that I don't have the right to say it anymore? Is it a bad thing...being that I can say that I HAVE used it in "Vain".... Have I said it so much and gave it to so many people that I have "given" my love away ...so much so that no one will give me the love that I deserve because it is so easily shut off ?...As has been so true in my past. Hmmmm.... maybe Ill be the one who at this point has become so unwilling to give MY love to anyone that I will use it and then quickly turn the Faucet OFF, from being scared?... I  don't know but I DO know that I want love ...not the kind that Billie is talking about .. I want it to be the kind the NEVER Turns off but that Constantly Runs ...I hope to have this one day. Until then...I know I wont speak that  word to any potential mate ...Not bitter at all....I made every decision. 

My Weight is Consuming my Existience

Ok, Ok, Maybe this is a little extreme but, I honestly think that my weight is consuming my life and is determining my future. I am finally at the point where i am so fed up with it I cant stand it anymore and I  just want it gone .....being that I have felt this way I went and took an extreme measure so to speak and decided to do the HCG Diet  injections. Hmmm , you are probably thinking to your self....did you read all of the side effects of HCG?  And the answer is Yes I did, and so far day 12 i am experiencing all types of weeirrddd stuff ...My face is breaking out like crazy (side effect is acne) oh yea and I'm STARVING i did lose 9.5 lbs thus far but it is certainly the hardest thing I've ever done. The only thing i can suggest you do Is Diet and Exercise that's what I  will be doing after this ...... being lazy is never the answer ... but like my father says a hard head makes for a SOFT azz and boy am I paying for this now.....with HUNGER!! (should'a just worked out from the beginning i'd be 252.00 richer - That could have went toward my winter wardrobe!! #LAWRYS )  :) 

Picture Re-Blogged from :

Artie Wayne On The Web

Sewin' in and Sewin it WELL

Wow, So Being that im so new to this whole blogging thing just as I am to sewing I decided to bring them togethor! Its so crazy how long my mom has been sewing, and I havent appreciated or took the time out to take advantage of having such a skilled mother. So recently I decided that some of that god given talent has to be in me somewher and guess... what it is !!!! Below you have a simple clutch that I took time out to make the pattern for and sew up myself! IT was SSSSOOOOOO easy I LOVE IT!!! Im So happy that this is something I know that I can do.HAHAHA suckassssss :) This was the first of many more pics for showcasing to come Stay TUNED!! Ideas are always welcome.

Its a New Day

"Dont Threatin me with love baby, Lets just go walking in the rain"- Billie Holiday

 The one and only, Self Proclaimed.. Billie Holiday Obessed, Chevy Loving, Often times Vintage inspired, Clutch Purse Crazy, Completely Random and out of this World Heleshia :)